OHIO IS FOR LOVERS

2006-10-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

Standing on the rooftops everybody scream your heart out.

2006-10-09T03:45:00.000-07:00

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.
<3 love you darling.

I love the way the galaxy starts to melt, when we become one.

2006-09-05T23:40:00.000-07:00

2006-09-03T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hello, I love you, will you tell me your name?
Hello, I am good for nothing, will you love me just the same?

Carnivorous leech, Sensible naked mole rat. Beautiful Walrus. Righteous Iguana. Tiny/Thundering Tractor.
& our future plans.
:D
Makes Erotic/ Excellent Lorry a Happy Lorry.

& they write books about this sort of thing

2006-08-31T23:00:00.000-07:00

Hey Konstantine, thanks for the message. It didn't reach me at 11.11, but still, (:

Cyanide! yesterday. It wasn't what I expected. I screwed up quite a bit. But the dancing around back stage with everyone was kinda fun. The whole performance was just.. not us. After everthing, Cyanide minus Beatrice plus Clara went to Bishan. For lunch. Taina went with me to Kcp. I wanted to see people. Went there, and had Jonathan Chung knocked off Taina's hat which was on my head. Taina stared and he walked away. Hah. She's good. Mr Tan gave me nice biscuits. We went back to find the rest, & we headed to esplanade. We went to sit on fuzzy chairs. & we lazed around there for quite a while. I tried to take a nice picture with Clara, but she kept giving photosmile. They wanted to do see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. I ended covering my whole face, I wanted to hide. Oh mummy thought that Renny was my boyfriend. How amusing. Pizzahut was abit neh. Cause Renny kept calling me pepek!! Awwmuhhhgudddz I cry. For like a hour or so, I knew how roxygalz felt.

I am going to be nice to the roxygalz, promise!

& be real nice to my Konstantine. :D

Today is going to be spent at home, studying and cleaning my room.

Note to Renny.
I'll blog for you! Be nice to meeeee.

This is a long shot.

2006-08-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

Hi. I stole this picture from Beat.
Anyway, ohioisforloversx has been dead for quite some time. New blog coming sooon!
Cyanide! tomorrow. Let's hope everything goes well.
Dear everyone, enjoy the show.

2006-08-19T01:00:00.000-07:00

Well, the future's got me worried.
Such awful thoughts.
My head's a carousel of pictures, The spinning never stops.
I just want someone to walk in front, & I'll follow the leader.

... I almost forgot who I was, but I came to my senses.
Now I'm trying to be assertive, I'm making plans .
Gonna rise to the occansion, meet all their demands.

But I do is just lay in bed, & hide under the covers.

I know I should be brave, but I'm just too afraid of all this change.
& it's hard to focus through all this self doubt.

I keep making these to-do lists, but nothing gets crossed out.

Working on the record seems pointless now, when the word ends, who's gonna hear it?
But I'm taking some comfort in written words.

... Cause I have been feeling sentimental for days gone by.
All the summers drinking, singing, laughing.
Wasting our time.
Remember all the songs, and the way we smiled? In those basements made of music.

But I've got to crawl to get anywhere at all.
I'm not as strong as I thought.

So when I'm lost in a crowd, I hope that you'll pick me out.
How I long to be found.
The grass grow hight, I laid down.
Now I am waiting for a handto lift me up, help me stand.
I've laying so slow.
Don't wanna lay here no more.

...

Everything that happens is supposed to be.
& it's all predetermined, can't change your destiny.

Guess I'll keep moving.

Somday, I'll get to where I'm going.

2006-08-17T05:29:00.000-07:00

I was tagged by Beat.

iTune's on shuffle.

DDDD: Let us find out some stuffffffff.

How do you feel today?

NIKI FM x Hawthorne heights

( Not really)

Will you get far in life ?

BONNIE TAYLOR SHAKEDOWN 2K1 x Hellogoodbye

( This doesn't make sense. But Hellogoodbye is awesome, so I don't really care :D)

How do your friends see you?

I DON'T WANNA KNOW x New Found Glory

( I don't wanna know. & I wanna know)

Will you get married?

BAD TUESDAY x JONNY UNITE US

( I take that as a yes, no, I don't know. )

What is your best friend's theme song?

TIME IS RUNNING OUT x Muse

( What do you think, best friend? )

What is the story of your life?

FAILURE BY DESIGNER JEANS x From First To Last

( This makes sense.)

What was high school like?

THIS YEARS MOST OPEN HEARTBREAK x Funeral For A Friend

( Wow.)

How can you get ahead in life?

WINE STAINED LIPS x Catch 22

( Awesome.)

What is the best thing about your friends?

FORGET ABOUT ME x Box Car Racer

( Not true! ): Tell me I am right. )

What is in store for this weekend?

KONSTANTINE x Something Corporate

( My konstantine needs to study for prelims)

What song describes you?

TAKE CARE x Copeland

( " Have faith that when you call my name, I will be there." )

To describe your grandparents?

INNOCENT x Our Lady Peace

( Haha! )

How is your life going?

WITHOUT YOU x Busted

( Without who? )

What song will they play at your funeral?

MASTERPIECE x Bayside

( AWWWMUHHHGUDDDZZ. I love. )

How does the world see you?

DEAD ON ARRIVAL x Fall Out Boy

( Do you?)

Will you have a happy life?

HOPELESS BELIEVING x Saosin

( Wow. That's quite sad)

What do your friends really think of you?

I WOKE UP IN A CAR x Something Corporate

( "I've never been so lost, I never felt so much at home." ? You decide)

Do people secretly lust after you?

SNOWBIRDS & TOWNIES x Further Seems Forever

( I don't see the connection! )

How can I make myself happy?

ANESTHETIC PARADE x We Are The Fury

( You sure)

What should you do with your life?

WE ARE ALL TO BLAME x Sum 41

( Go jamming everyday?)

Will you ever have children?

THE CLOSEST THING x The Juliana Theory

( Ehhhh. I don't know what this means! )

2006-08-11T23:54:00.000-07:00

Eva's philosophy of life is that she might die at any moment.
The tragedy, she said, was that she didn't.

2006-08-09T08:44:00.000-07:00

We went to the esplanade yesterday. To watch fireworks. Mong came to find me, cause he's nice. & we were late. So we ended watching it on the road towards esplanade. We ended up sitting on the not-so-fuzzy chairs talking. I spent about two hours. I wouldn't call it a waste of time, more like time worthwhile. (:
I slept over at Cel's that night. With Suuz & Tai. Roti prata, cotton candy, tricky putty laboratory, and Fight Club. Awesome. (:

"If you can wake up in a different place, in a different time, could you wake up as a different person?"

What you feel is what you are, & what you are is beautiful.

2006-08-04T09:49:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how things fit so perfectly. It can be kissing your lovers lips in a way they fit like a puzzle, and you have no intentions of ever letting go. It can be a crime scene investigation looking for clues for a perfectly devised murder and how all the clues fall into place. It's times like these that make you remember how you were and no matter how much you thought you changed, you didn't. Everything is the same as it was four years ago. You stay awake all night just to realize you've wasted another few hours of your life in a binge. You just pray to God that one day this nightmare will end the way you've always dreamt it would be. You come to notice that no matter how you try, nothing bad would happen, almost as if you were meant to live. The one who kept you alive is not breathing and suddenly everything comes back to you. Yes, it is all your fault. Yes, you could have done something about it. No, you will never die, no matter how hard you try. It's these exact words you tell yourself everday and it brings you down every single time. Everything goes good for a while, then you kill because you're tired of being happy. Now as you think of this, everything falls on you once again and you're trying to dig yourself out of all your despair. You realize there is too much to dig out for one person, so you give up and suffocate in your own mistakes. They say everything happens for a reason, and it's amazing how everything falls into place.

1st April's entry.

Time kinda flies.

Mrs Gay called me special. I wonder what that means. I don't feel special. But that.. really made today such a nice one. I guess small little things like these always seem to make me so much happier. Today.. made me think. I guess I am not a happy person sometimes. Most people know that I figured, they call it angst. I am not sure what to call it. What I often feel, I can't explain. I remember, I once told a friend of mine, I only want 15 minutes of happiness, pure bliss, and that's all I need. I don't want alot. But what I want, I often don't get. I long forgotten what it is like to feel.. happiness. I don't even know what to feel anym0re. Ignorance? Pain? Numb? My emotions often go wild, and they take me some place I would rather not go. I don't know what to feel anymore. Wake up Eva, I tell myself. You can be every hope you wish to feel. You can everything you wanted to be. You can be happy. But actions do speak louder than words. Maybe it's time to start.

If I can control myself better, maybe I won't take whatever that comes that hard. But, I don't. I need to know if it's okay to feel weak sometimes. Because I feel so weak. As selfish as it sounds, I want to be loved. I need to know that I am wanted, needed, and loved. Please don't judge me for this, thankyou. In one of my recent events, I said that love is an excuse to get hurt. And to hurt. Maybe it is so. Perhaps. I would love to know that I am wrong. Show me.

I think I don't make much sense.

It's just me and And Then I Turned Seven tonight.

Something tells me this is going be a case of 'wait and see' . Something tells me that I am going to grow up, look back, and laugh at how silly I used to be. Something tells me that all these issues I face now, isn't that bad after all. Something tells me that I should deal. It's crazy how things work out sometimes. Life's quite unpredictable. And it's crazy how our worlds can collide. Hey someone, I told you not too long ago. Maybe you remembered. Or maybe not. You know, I think I'll be alright somehow. I am afraid I will grow up and forget this all. I am scared I'll forget. As stupid as it sounds, I want to hold on to every single memory and suspend them all in one single moment, and it'll be forever. It'll last forever. Well, if only.

I run to you now if I could, but things have changed.

Goodnight, Love

2006-08-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

HI MONG.

I like your purple guitar. (:
You don't play dota, yay. (:
You promised me a song. (:
Yay (:

2006-08-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

You write such pretty words, but life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt.
& to hurt.

Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do.
Then hurt me.

2006-07-29T00:48:00.000-07:00

HERE'S EVERYTHING I'VE ALWAYS MEANT TO SAY.

Just be in love, & I'll kiss you like you've always wanted.
Just close your eyes, I'll live as if I'm dying.
If I don't make your heart skip a beat, then hate me.
If I don't make you feel anything, then it's me.
I just want to make you feel beautiful, for once in your life.

"Hello, i've missed you quite terribly"

2006-07-23T06:12:00.001-07:00

The best class ever. (:

Roxygalz & I

Renny renny renny!

Cause we try too hard to look happy.

I had a pretty flower in my hair. ( I stole it from the roxygalz by the way! )

Sec three jumpers

I try too hard to be lian. Taina being very Taina. With beat & roxygalz in the background.

Natalie looks nice. My sari is falling apart. Hoorah.

3n was in quite a mess in the morning.

Lyana, Tanisha, Eva
" Disgustingggggg!" As Lyana would say.

It was Racial Harmony Day on friday.

2006-07-21T22:43:00.000-07:00

So long sweet summer,
I stumbled upon you & gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer,
I fell into you,

& now you are gracefully falling away.

2006-07-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive.
( Now I only waste it dreaming of you.)

But it's better if you do.

2006-07-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

TODAY.

x I swear, most of the teachers in Cedar hate me. No, I am not that dumb, thankyou very much.

x We had this english compre test today. It was fine. Bio, History, Amaths next week. Hoorah.

x Was hanging around the school with Celeste, & Phy. While we waited for Taina & Sandhya.

x Went down to cck to support Cedar. We did pretty good. Sipei was awesome.

x We left & went to queensway. I went to return the malay boy his money.

x I wanted the from first to last shirt. But I didn't get it. Cause I wanted to think about it first, & Dear Taina was rushing me.

x We went to wake me up music for a while. We sat outside the store & talked & stoned. Well, I did.

x Everyone loves my cute little yellow car! (:

x CHMA tomorrow. & BAYBEATS (: Alright, can't wait.